Deep thought of the morning...

I realized yesterday how random I can be... After talking with my husband this morning, I figured out that my randomness used to bug him a bit. People don't always want to hear every little thing that I think. And the worst part is, since I don't always remember what I say, I could have really ticked off so many people by saying something that hurt them without even realizing it.

I have all these bad memories as teen/preteen of people deciding they didn't like me and proceeding to make that clear to me, and for so long I thought that those situations were purely the result of kids bonding by finding a common enemy - me being the easy target. I'm starting to wonder if what really happened was that I said or did something that hurt these people, and they just didn't know how to tell me or forgive me.

While I definitely have the natural tendency to just be totally open and free with what I share, sometimes doing so is not the best plan and could possibly cause me to lose friends. Knowing when to not talk has got to be one of the hardest obstacles I will ever have to try to overcome.

Back to a regular schedule

So it's been three weeks since I started my new job. Things are going super well, and I feel so much better about what I do now. As always, though, there are a few tasks that I've been meaning to do for a while that I just can't seem to find the motivation for. It seems that if I wait long enough, they won't really matter anymore - maybe I'll just do that... :-) Can't skip cleaning the cat litter, though. (Too bad for me...)

Also, I've finally gotten through last year's pictures that needed to be scrapbooked, so now I get to focus completely on whatever I want. I'm thinking that I will only scrapbook a few major events per year. Limiting myself will hopefully help me to not feel so overwhelmed with "keeping up", so then I will be more excited about just doing pages for fun. I guess this means that tomorrow I'm going to take a trip up to Joann's and pick up a new album. Woohoo!